Therapy was always something I knew I needed but for one reason or another was something that I put off. Whether that was due to my “lack of time” or anxiety that actually put me off of seeking help in order to get better in the first place.
Toward the end of 2020 into the start of 2021 my mental health took a nose dive and in that moment I knew I needed some more professional help. My anxious mind turned to online CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) partly due to the on going lockdowns but also as this was the only type of therapy previously offered to me.
I have had a handful experiences of CBT over my teenage and young adult years. Not once have I found it helpful in my personal experience. Of course i’m not saying don’t try CBT – it has helped millions in training their thoughts, combating anxiety and depression. I completed six sessions of online CBT before I finally confirmed that it wasn’t for me.
I discovered that in fact I had deeper concerns that needed to be addressed and bought to the surface – in a way that CBT simply doesn’t do. I turned to Google and started looking for alternative therapy options. This is where I discovered psychotherapy.
For a while I sat with the thought of starting psychotherapy trying the build up the courage to reach out to a licensed therapist. I knew that if I were to do this it would have to be in person and not through a computer screen. I started my research into therapists in my area and finally narrowing it down to two.
When narrowing down my potential options I wanted to ensure that they had experience and training relevant to me. I was particularly interested in therapists with experience in Anxiety, Depression, Trauma, Psychosomatic Illness, Attachment Issues, Sexuality and also Neurodiversity.
I reached out to both with the objective of finding out if they could offer face to face sessions despite the current lockdown. I received a response from them both within a day – one confirming they did and the other only virtually (and understandably so).
and so there it was – decision made.
I acted quickly when booking in my first trail appointment as I knew the longer that I waited for the session the more anxious and likely I would be to cancel.
I am going to be documenting my experience of psychotherapy as already six sessions in it is doing my mental health absolute wonders. By writing about this on my blog I also want to help break down the stigma attached to seeking professional help for our mental health.
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